CRU “only wanted to take, never to give me time or answers to my questions”

From Redditor pmMeScienceFacts

“My family have worked for Cru. So I grew up in it.

I started college and immediately got involved in Cru. Each Cru movement is different, but mine was pretty bad. They lacked leaders, so there was so much pressure to get involved. It always felt like they were draining me spiritually. They only wanted to take, never to give me time or answers to my questions.

I remember at one of my first Christmas Conferences they made us to Facebook evangelism. They REQUIRED that we contact X number of people and ask them how we could pray for them (to be fair I could have walked out, it was my decision but there was so much pressure and judgement that I just…folded).

I was a freshmen so I didn’t know ANYONE on campus. I did have an old acquaintance from middle school who had recently contacted me and said they went to the same school as me. We hadn’t talked in years, but I HAD to message X people so I messaged them. We had plans to hang out sometime, and I NEVER heard from them again. I lost that friendship. I felt so upset because I didn’t feel like I had a good enough friendship with them to message them, but I was pressured to do so to fill an arbitrary goal of “messaging X people”.

I also was pressured into doing “cold” evangelism where we went up to random people on campus and asked to share the gospel with them. I DRRADED IT every week (yes we did it for 90 min every week). But I chalked up my discomfort to spiritual warfare. I TRICKED people into talking with me by using lies that Cru taught us. I would ask people to play a “game” called Soularium (u/_hooman_ mentions they did this too) when really I was just waiting to tell them about Jesus.

We also had fake “surveys” we gave out to get people talking about religion. We lied and said it was a real survey our organization was taking. But no one ever logged in the responses, it was just a bait and switch. I asked the leaders why we lied about it and didn’t actually log responses. They just made a joke about it saying no one wanted to spend the time to log in responses. I always felt bad about that. I’m sorry to all the random people I tricked into talking about God. I think the loving thing to do would be to hear someone’s story and learn from them, empathize with them, and if I believed God was the answer to help them discover that themselves.

I had some other serious problems with Cru that I don’t want to go into here because they’re super specific and identifiable.

Cru was such a bad experience for me, that when I left college I felt spiritually numb. I felt like I was struggling for air, and grasping to hold onto my faith. They played a small role in my realization that churches are broken, which lead me to question which beliefs I actually held and which I didn’t. That’s where I am now. Trying to figure out what I believe for myself. I still consider myself spiritual, but I want to find the answer whether it’s Christianity or not.”


2 thoughts on “CRU “only wanted to take, never to give me time or answers to my questions””

  1. I’m just angry the frat boys took the girls at campus crusade

    But seriously, I’ve had horrific experiences with Christianity, including Campus Crusade.

    Did any of that “finish off” and ultimately end the life of Jesus? Nope.

    I ended up falsy accused, abandoned and sick as could be, in a county jail. The Christians I had known all running to their prejudice (s). Some of those who loved me lying through their teeth.

    Amongst other things, I had something similar to “Drone Pilot PTSD”. My work included global live combat support. No Christian had a clue what was going on with me. Judges all.

    The evidence against me, from the outside, looked bad.

    I had two thoughts –

    1. Jesus gave his life for all the religious hypocrites that attacked him and left him to be nailed to the cross. He even loved the men who drove nails into his hands, and I’m such a zealot type it could have been me. Read – Jesus love the hypocrites I was really pissed off at.

    And me.

    It’s a story the human mind cannot invent.

    2. I could either go through my sufferings as though he was dead, or as though he was alive.

    I was living out Ecclesiastes chapter 3.

    I have no doubt…

    The Christ of God is alive.

    How then shall we hate, love and live?

    Peace to you my dear brothers and sisters.

    I have found some of Luther’s ideas re receptive spirituality to be helpful. But yeah, there are humans there too.


  2. I was abused by the head volunteer youth minister in Campus Crusade for Christ while in college. He was a pathological narcissist. I was trapped in a cycle of domestic abuse. Love bombing, smear campaign, devalue and discard. I was subjected to an attempted physical assault, emotional, verbal and social abuse. It’s the church’s responsibility to protect the sheep especially new Christian’s such as myself. I was not supported or protected because Campus crusade does not have a vetting process to prevent people with troubled pasts from leading in campus ministry. The President of CCC tried to punch me in the face, overdosed me on NyQuil, bragged about visiting prostitutes and committing adultery, lied about me to the ministry team so they would hate me and to isolate me so I could be more easily abused, lied to me about visiting strip clubs and prostitutes with the male music ministers. He was a voyeur and a porn addict. He would watch the girls in the dorm across the street from his bedroom window. He would allude to felony criminal activity. I was bullied by his friends (the ministry team) for not allowing him to use me sexually. He did all of this while teaching bible studies, leading prayer meetings, correcting my doctrine and leading worship. I was scared to end the relationship and fearful to tell anyone. Campus Crusade aka the CRU did not have a clear path for me to report this abuse. The staff ministers are not trained in how to handle bullying or domestic violence. Just like a good ole boys network I would’ve had to report this to the 25 year old staff minister who was best buds with the Abuser. I didn’t stand a chance!


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